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its time you stop giving up on yourself. life isnt decided by ur environment and the circumstances you've landed yourself into before. it is ur own life gawdammit. you cant just sit there like a pig and waste it anyway. looking at other alternatives means chickening out stupid! running away solves zilch problems. its not even advisable for starters. dun talk about respecting what others think about you when you give urself no respect at all.

your disappointing the people who care about you. seeing a sea of gloomy and dead faces surfacing ur memories doesnt serve any intelligent purpose. why bother continueing in that path when it leads to a dead end? it may be hard to change ur route now, given the restricted time and the fact that you are beginning to let go of everything. still, it cant just happen like that. its just not fair and meant to be. where's the fighting spirit and the will to win and strive to be best? for now, being better den you were before seems arabic given the current situations.

dun let anything stand btwn youself and your aim of diverting ur way back into the better path. you didnt let anything affect you before, why start now? dun be an idiot lah kat.

surely, i deserve a kick in the head please.

kcat shot a scene on 23:37.