+dumbells 1,2,3,4.+`
my hse's playground rocks. its so well suited for just plain talks. haha. i shall bring the wood-ians dere one day.
went to dine with deb and her friend. haha. ruoling if i aint wrong. tmr we're meetin up with toiletwo. around 1030? it'll be a miracle if i can wake up den lah.
you know sth. i just realised tt if you dislike somebody. just say it straight out know. no point covering it all and pretending that everything's aiight on the surface. afterall, THIS IS MY DAMN BLOG! haha. =)
i know of this certain friend, This once so close friend which i treasured very much. but den suddenly sth happen, and 2005 chAnged everything. we distant and quarrelled till the extend that Nothing can be salvage. or rather, no one bothered. so yeah, den when the explanations came, it turns out that loSing friends aint sth surprising to that friend at all. haha. it just gave me the idea that tt frIend din really bother keeping friends close to her side. afterall, all she needed was him and a few others. =X so yeah. i'm so tired of being called upon as the bully by so many other ppl, and that friend can tell me that no one did. how naive of her. anyway, everything bUilt up till this big decision. it din really mattered anymore whether i had her respect or stuff. i just din wan anything to do with her. -NTH AT ALL-. i dun care if she bloodyhell hates me. in fact i'll be glad to hear that cos it'll only make me gain more dislike for her easily. and today, finally, i think i saw it! i saw the hAtred! x) haha. if one can be so blinded by whats the driving force of one's own failure, that person is dumb. i was once the dumb person, i din know that power change went to her though. the truth, i'm totally disappointed in her lah. the drastic change. the taking for graNted behaviour. i see it all with my own eyes, and the eyes of others too. the words they speak of her, totally distasteful. yet, she doesnt know it. she doesnt care. haha. i admire such ignorance. the bravery. the stupidity. wake up! i feel like i dunno you anymore, if that even matter to you.
dere. i said her name too. and i wasnt afraid to admit who i was talking bout.
