+changes do stink. bigtime.+`
i went back to hihs today. and i see lotsa changes. big ones. the sec1s are shit k. i've been dere for less den 5mins and i already hear awful stuff about some of em. big time bimbos and bitches. talk about making good first impressions. crap.
anyway, one struck me. i cant believe how one yr changed my friend. from someone totally nice and sweet to a bitch twin. on the outside, the niceness and petiteness doesnt have its value anymore. its like i was sitting beside someone i hafta be totally cautious off. jokes and teases with nice hearty finishing laughters were replaced with remarks, sarcastic and bad. it din seemed like playing. more like dissing each other in a joking manner. the feel is different, not as fun as it was.
the worst was the part whereby my friends can tell me wad that friend was doing and all. vulgarities and middle fingers aint sth bad at all already. its like a joke. i mean, when my other friends did all this it aint such a big deal, but because its you who did em which made me gape. fun is one thing, but the timing of doing all those is another. nvms.
i know its natural to change. especially during the sec2 and sec3 period. teachers have all said that and i myself have witnessed drastic changes. i did it, so did my few friends. i should accept the change of my friend too, but i cant. there's this invisible distance btwn the connection. like i can just look at my friend and think of how little i know about her. its just like staring at a stranger, and forming a bad impression.
its like, she's walking through the makings of a perfect biatch. the attitude and facial expressions are just perfect. gosh. i'm shocked. its worst when ppl around me are telling me that too. not everyone is saying that but it'll wldnt be wise to feel bad only when the whole world is pointing fingers at her all at once.
BIGBIGSIGHS.
i hate changes. but its part of life. i just hope she knows wads the right thing for herself. it'll be terrible losing the old her to reality.
