+dawnbreaks+`
i'm thinking bout just now. the part where friendship doesnt exist in that lil room. it was just silence and glances. its not even looks. dere, it happened again. i pretended, i cld even jolly well ignore. it was jus too easy. maybe i shouldnt act anymore. i hate the grammy awards. i have no need for em. i jus needa show my natural strut. live the life, whereby u dun exist.
nahx, thats too harsh. i dun regret u coming into my stagnant life. i just see the end of the funtimes we can have together already. maybe i'll just treat u the way i treat my friends. not those close ones, just those i occasionally joke with when i feel like, and shun away when i'm not on cloud 9.
i bet when i'm outta singapore. its gonna be worst. the drift will definately lengthen. maybe by den i might already treat u as someone like pple u dun hear me talk about. i'll surely miss all my pals. seriously, all of em. the fun times i had with all of em were indeed nice and awesome. they show they care. but u are one who jus keep quiet. i abhor silence.
i feel so much at ease now. ppl wonder why such a great change took place. why were there no more conversations. i just simply put these questions into the dustbin. i dunno how to answer em. i hate initiatives. it seems like you dun wish to initiate anyway. its really making me irritated.
jealousy is common to all beings. i dun deny i do get that gut feeling too. it stinks. i get stuck at this topic. ahhas. like now, the words just dun come out and i cant elaborate. waddahell. useless.
i dun get how u always make me feel that this friendship is so darn hard to maintain. i salute u man. i'm totally clueless as to how u gave me that vibe. and i assure u it aint a good one. it takes two hands to clap. but for this it aint the same.
and cos of that. i aint gonna open up or do anything anymore. even if cos of that this friendship goes down the drain, i wun lay a finger. it doesnt mean i'll ignore, i jus wun call the shots. i dun see a need in doing that anymore. it jus doesnt work liddat already.
i'm serious bout this. i dun see any roundabout in this issue. even if you try doubly hard to rescue this from hell, i aint promising things will take a turn. thats how bad it is. i doubt you'll do anything anyway. but whatever, this is jus a lil of how i feel.
sheesh. in half an hour's time, ppl will wake up for work already. hahas. i'm gonna talk to wen's malay friend already. later.
