+this first flaw+`

got back my cca slip. i tot it was wad nice stuff and all, but it was jus another paper. blahs. regretted getting pretty hyped bout it. even hafta cough up the bloody $28 myself before i can collect it. lucky for my brother.

i so dun like tmr. its band camp. my brother will be away. no one to watch my back anymore. and if i cant slp at night, it'll be freaking boring!

my eyes are kinda swollen. hahas. red and all. i dun like this condition. everytime i wanna express sth which i know i cant, i'll keep it to myself. its irritating. i dun like it man, it may harm my body or sth. wad respect. bullshit la. but everything still ended quite aiight. thank god. still it doesnt mean it wun happen again. with me in the hse, how can it not.

resentment is building up slowly. and i'm trying so darn hard to put em away. the gap is increasing rapidly and whatever measures that were taken aint working. i aint no superwoman. i have my limits. and its almost reaching its peak.

its that bad. i need a way to channel all the bad stuff away. i need a cold drink so badly right now.

i always try to forget all the bad stuff. asap. i dun even wanna put them into my memories. their not worth it. but sometimes, i jus cant do it.

as much as i hate you for that, i hate myself even more for being part of it.

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