+i see ur guilt, but u cant understand my pain+`

that really hurt. if its jus physically maybe i'll still be alright. but it wasnt that simple. its like you stab me in my heart. up till now it still lingers in my thoughts. and tt never fails to bring me tears and sadness.

its worst when i see u cry. i know i'm wrong, i know i made u did that. i know u din even wanted to do that. dun apologize. it'll make me feel worst. i'm the one who should say sorry. the thought of hating u makes me hate myself more. i'm sorry i'm not the perfect girl u had wanted me to be. i'm jus not good enuff.

i know u had my interest at heart. i know u knew tts not how i operate. u didnt want me to live in regret. how i wish i cld have understood. how i wish i cld have done wad i could when i can.

i'm not worried bout anything except this. i dun even care bout my future. its not as important as this. the tears last night wasnt shed for me, myself. it was cause of how i feel. i'm incapable of expressing it. i feel so useless. i feel so disappointed in myself cos i knew i've disappointed u.

this incident will stay as one of my memories. put aside yes, but forgotten never. i'm feeling super sad cos of this. do u even know? its so bad until tears well up unconsciously. even up till now. and thats sth i cant control..

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