+welcome to 1208am+`
its past midnight. i cant sleep. been up thinking and thinking and thinking and...
yeah, get wad i mean?. hahs. ultra stupid. cant stand it. blahs.
tot of screaming, but its too late. tot of tearing//crying but the tear ducts stopped functioning. tot of blaring the music but my dad said it was too noisy. tot of going out of the hse but den koda will wanna join me. tot of alot of things, but nth seems possible. desperate already.
blogging is good. i can say wad i feel and no one reading will know wad is going on. hahs. probs are kept secret yet anger can be vented. i'm tired of keeping so many things within me. limits are reached. cheers to blogspot! =D
i wan a mini fridge in my room! so tt i can grab a drink or any snack in my room, save me the trouble of climbin up and down the darn stairs. hahs. can facilitate my brain to function, enabling me to mug better too. so pple, those who wan me to study. i need a mini fridge please! xP
jus played the guitar. moodless. sound came up all wrong. wanna play flute, lost the scores. picture perfect la. tmr still gotta meet toilets at 7. sure cant wake up. mus as well dun sleep. hahs.
compos.compos. i feel like doing em. it sets me thinking. i love creating ideas, new and crappy. forming my own stupid story which i so wanna experience be it good or bad. but i'm lazy to write. wads more, i'm outta paper. spoils my compo mood. so it adds to my wantlist. a fullscap pad!
i want to have one day when i'm not important in anyone's life. so that i can jus live for myself and do wad i want. bear responsibility for only my own actions, of which most are kinda dumb la. so yeah. can i be granted that? how bout tmr? or rather from now. till whenever i want it to stop. i wanna know how it feels like to be not regarded. its kinda interesting. being a recluse//friendlesscreep//moron.
so yes. i'll stop being kragg//iws//ppg//gf(s)//5[n]`//toiletone//etc.. until the day sth make me change my mind. thank you.
guess i mus be bored. needing sth to spice up my life. been living in a lap of luxury for too long. although my life now aint tt fantastic but i'm more fortunate den some others. those ostracised and cast away are really pitiful. i wanna live a day like em. den maybe i'll cherish pple more. and stop being a spoiltbrat//attentionseeker//arsehole.
my bro has been pissed recently. its hard for him to get so worked up. or to even bother bout stuff so mundane. now he gets agitated. it mus be pretty bad, or its mus have happened too often. the dark ominous cloud mus go away man. it stinks. period.
gonna play some com game. donald duck! hahs. not intending to sleep tonight. should be la. hahs. bored contact me. den again my phone is in my room. it may be quite awhile before i reply. lalalas.
i'm tired of prata. lets go chomp-ing. black carrot cake. the nearby coffeeshop at my hse has pretty nice hokkien mee. now i feel like eating. blahs. hahs.
aiights. donald duck is waiting. bye pple. have a nice sleep and a pleasant morning later! =D maybe shall blog later.
