+panick attack+`

i had a freakin panic attack last night which was freaking unnecessary. i hate the feeling. first time in my life i feel so bloody freaked out. over the exams somemore! first time can. i think its stress! and boy do i hate that word.

its like wanna scream dun wanna scream liddat. keep having the mentality that dere is so many things//chapters to learn! feel so bloody pekcek and wanted to give up so badly. so tempted to tear up everything can. its worst when u know nuts bout practically half the subjects u are tested on.

i'm so foreign to this bloody feel which i so bloody abhor. i hate it.

it generated cos i was tired. lost all my bio prac notes. bickered with about everyone in the hse. brother hogged the room's tv. the maid doublecrossed me. major moodswing. even drinking any dumb cold drink cldnt appease me. it was terrible man.

i finally feel the pinch. its sick. today's bio prac. screwed.

and to think i made my promises. now i need a miracle.

*thanks for all the pushes//nags//threatens everyone gave to make me study. really appreciated it. but i've almost given up already. due to bad time management and hopeless reality. why not you? >_<

kcat shot a scene on 08:33.