+LiKe a tOy+`
everyone's asleep. pple made promises and kept em. lalalas.
i'm havin mixed feelings regarding something. seriously i dun like it. its not supposed to be liddat. i'm not supposed to feel liddat. i should be happy instead. or rather, i should be overjoyed. but i aint. not at all. this is crazy and very absurd. not liking it one bit.
hahas. letting go already. i've learnt to let go once. succeeded den. life still went on. den things returned to original. everything was back again. hahas. and yes, it went on like as if its in a circle. now its time to let go once more. the results were at first drastic. drifting was involved. it was really dreadful. yeaps. hahas. but here it goes again.. its neverending and never will it end. or so it seems for now.
i'm in full control of everything. i'm made to decide everything. its as if everything depended on me. how life goes and how things end. it is good, yet bad. pple depended on me. some depended too much. way too much till i'm tired of being their support pillar already. its like i'm the one pulling strings and holding on in the friendship and everything going on in it. hahas. many times i wanted to let go but i cant. hahas. gonna try. gotta try. flexibility is required. no objections raised anyway.
some things are meant to be not said. hahas. good things done shouldnt be broadcasted. silence should be observed. yeaps. being famous aint good. everyone will know you and take great notice of ur faults. ughs.
fake pretents are handy. no one can see thru mine. i'm good. xP living wif em for very very long. no one cracked that shell. no one can. still surviving. no one bothered anyhows. hahas. no more ilurveyous and yourockamilliontimesmorethanever. the past is wanted. it was good wad. quiet and conservative. at least love wun be so meaningless. sayin it too many times makes it lose its status and effect.
wanted to broadcast bout my love for limegreen but apparently someone beat me to it. that copykat. yes, that very one copykat. hahs. purple has become nice cos very rarely pple like it. and when not many pple like it, it becomes unique and special. so its okay in my book for now.
tenyrs time. gotta buy kovan melody. but wun it lose its value? hahs. expect that call in ten yrs. i promise that the 8-number number wun be forgotten. trust and believe. meanwhile in that tenyrs. things happen as quick as lightning. changes, very scary ones. at least i'm not of impt value or so i think and feel. i'll be back behindthescenes. cool wif me, used to it. prolly liking it.
the same phrase still runs
---_contacted when bored.chucked when wanted not_---
beginning to like it already. x)
