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i dun wanna try no more. forget it. if things are liddat and thats the response i get, whats the use right. i dun wanna care. its making me feel worse. why bother making myself feel like shit. i like my old self. i dun the me now. jus look at all my blog entries. its so not me. i hate puttin up fake fronts. i dun wan. i give up. and i mean it.
pple around me dunno wassup. or rather, they dun really know. its like i'm in this all by myself. my friends are all cooped up wif their studies and me in this? wrong timing. i wanna let it go already. if its meant to be, den its meant to be. i feel like i'm forcing myself into it. its not as fun as the past anymore. why? hahas.
everytime the "idontknow" comes up. for me i'm as confused. but since no effort seems like its gonna be made, den no point pushing. nothing i said was ever corrected. so it means its agreed. no one stopped me from thinking they way i did, so yeaps u see wad i mean.
wOOtx. the radio's playin songs which are matchin my mood! hahas. suddenly power 98 rocks!
i seem like a bother. i dun wan it. nth is gonna be like it was before. too many thoughts and incidents accumulated to put it to a different league already. even if things got better, it'll either be better den it was before or lousier. wishful thinking man. perhaps things wun continue to go down the drain. that i have a 65-35 on it. look at the way things are now. if u minus this, everything in life seems okay, maybe much better right? so why not jus forget bout this. i bet no one will correct me on that too..
no confidence is put on this man. already half of it went to defeat already. so i shant change it. its too stressful and taxing. doing things by urself is so horrendous. the feeling aint right. i've been in so many shit before, this seems worst cos letting go is tough. but den if i wan i could.. somehow..
forget it. lalalas. i dun wanna care since no one is caring. so yeaps dun ever bother. i'm taking a break. i wanna do things that make me happy. hahas. SLEEP rocks!
and special thanks to bestfriend for ytd's incident at our "home" it really made me cheer up. and dada.. although u know nuts, jus take it that nth happened aiights. hahas. thanks for the hug, flea! wOotx!
iLuRveYouU two relatively dark pple! hahas. cos you all know whens the right time to say things!! =))
