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com is seriously down. i cant go msn. so i'll jus pop in to update a few stuff and check some others. life without the com is bad. and life wif the com but without an internet access is a hundred times worst! now aint so bad la. maybe wad i said came thru. without msn, i wun have opportunity to talk to anyone online.. it stinks but perhaps its a blessing in disguise or sth.
alot of things have changed. bonds have either drifted or grown tighter. i've experienced both. and i aint gonna comment on em. i dun wanna. i'd rather sit back and see the future without poking into its plans, even though i'm involved. as much as i hate it, probably i'll jus shut my eyes and let go. i'm tired of doing everything myself, initiating everything everytime. this implies to everything i've done and not jus to one particular incident. i'm like a fool, a confused one indeed. i dun like that at all. i need pple to trust and friends to rely on and although dere are already pple in my life who fits the bill, somehow i wish you can too..
tell me the truth, wishes dun come true right? hahas. prayers also wun be reality unless i do sth. being nonchalent and waiting for results aint gonna work for me anymore. but den wadabout the stuff which i can do nth to improve at all? wadabout the things which arent controlled by me? how in the world am i gonna wanna make it go the way i want to? how in the world will that come true?
life's full of unfairness i've realised. you gotta lose sth in order to gain another. i hate that! its jus crapshit. why cant i get both, why mus i choose.. wad if i choose wrongly, den wad will i become? my life will den be full of regrets, and that aint fair as all these loss were due to that one small mistake of choice i made. =/
enuff of these whinings. gonna go bathe now. can only be contacted thru my cell from now until further notice aiights. peace..
